Sunday, August 10, 2014

something personal / blog pause

Maybe you remember that 6 months ago my life changed a bit. I moved in with my boyfriend and we started something new together in a new city. It was hard for us to find a nice place with enough space for us to live and work in. We found a place of which we thought was a good start. Not to grow old in or live longer then 3 or 4 years, but for the beginning is was good.  It turned out to be a living hell. We had a lot of trouble with our neighbors, harassment, insults and it turned out that these houses are very bad isolated in their constructions, so we could hear everything that was going on in this building. People shouting at their children, at each other, breaking stuff. I spear you the details but I can tell you it was bad. So bad that my boyfriend and I got into fights about it until we noticed that we were not the problem but our environment. It was impossible for us to work here with those constant noises and screams.  Our first place should have been something nice, we should get used to each other but it was not nice at all. We started searching for a new place and we found one! Even if this means we have to move again after only 8 months. This new place is beautiful and so quiet and in a nice neighborhood. The only thing is that we have to renovate the attic where we want out work spaces. This is a lot of work but really worth it. On the picture you see old wallpaper that is now on a wall in the attic. It is very dirty (even if it does look nice here) and it has to go… So in the next two months I'll be busy doing that and moving out of this place. I won't be drawing much so this blog will be on hold for a while. I still be posting things on (mostly) Instagram and Facebook. These are both public profiles so even if you are not a "member" you can take a look if you want to see what I'm up to. I hope to see you there and now you know also why there will be hardly comments from me on your blogs. I also try to keep my food blog running.

Hopefully I see you in a while, take care!

Saturday, July 26, 2014

playing around

I brought this hand model home as a souvenir from my holiday. Maybe I finally learn how to draw hands correctly now…. I find them still very hard to draw and it goes wrong most of the time. Then I made this picture and just a little note: hold on to the ones you love, life can be over in a second after all that is going on in the world. I don't know how to say it in other words that do not sound like a Hallmark-card so before it gets to viscous I made another picture: maybe it can make the drawings for me! Ha!

Have a nice weekend!

Monday, July 21, 2014

I'm back...

… from my holiday. I don't do much drawing when I'm on vacation, just keeping a travel journal of what I did and saw.  This is one of the pages and below is the table and view I had while drawing. Very beautiful and relaxing.

Hope you are all doing fine and I try the catch up this week!

Thursday, July 3, 2014

see you soon!

I'm going on a holiday. For everyone who is going too or still has to go, I wish you a good time!

Tuesday, July 1, 2014

so beautiful dressed up

Well, I finished the first 2 drawings in this new series about little girls in sexy clothes meant for adults. A series about the sexualization of society.  What the drawings all will have in common is that the girls are posing with the same little stuffed rabbit. The drawings are 71 x 71 cm big and I drew on cardboard with pen. 

Saturday, June 28, 2014

drawing challenge

This weeks host for the DC is Patrice and her theme is "nude". As you have probably noticed by now I draw women ;-) And most of the time I think about issues as gender, feminism, women's rights but also beauty and how we look at ourselves and how society does this. So you would think that this theme fitted me perfectly, so did I at least! But I'm torn between two perceptions. My first thought was that I wanted to show something that expresses that you should be happy with your body. There are so many people (also men, but sorry, I don't like drawing men;-) who struggle with their body and how they look. I also have these times where I'm not happy with my body. But then I look back at pictures when I was younger and I see that I had nothing to worry about. I try to remember that when I have these times now. I probably will look back and think the same… So the first thing was: look at yourself and be happy about it!
But then I thought about al the nudity we see in papers, magazine and online. How we are used to these images of almost naked women who look perfect and we all want to look like these women even we know that most of them are photoshopped. That young girls think that the less they wear the better it is. So in the end this drawing turned out to be a mix of a proud women with a mirror who looks at herself but at the same time she looks like a supermodel who thinks what am I doing here? I leave it up to you, I could not make up my mind. And one last tip: do not google "nude" for inspiration… oh my, I'm so naive sometimes…

For more "nude" please visit the wonderful blog of Patrice who again made me think this week!

Monday, June 23, 2014

Friday, June 13, 2014

this is not it

I want to start a new series of drawings. This time no weapons but little girls in sexy clothes meant for adults. Like this girl has those "nipple tassels". A series about the sexualization of society. I think it is really getting to far what these girls see, wear or do. Did you know that you can already buy string-underwear for little girls? That is just bad! Anyway, I did a test with a drawing on shrink plastic and this is not working for me. I start again using pen on cardboard and lets see how that goes. You have to try things to see if they work but actually I'm just to impatient for that ;-)

Wish you all a good weekend!

Saturday, June 7, 2014

drawing challenge

This weeks host of the drawing challenge is Patrice and her theme is "upside down" with the question "what turns your world upside down?" For this week I just can't decide what to answer or which way to take it… My first thought -of course- was that I immediately thought about the really bad things that can happen to you, like loosing someone. Which really turns your world upside down, or in my case when I lost my mother: after 3 months it just hit me: the world keeps spinning… Then I broke down, nothing changes, I'm still doing what I have to do and so is the rest of the world, like nothing happened. But this does not happened on a daily bases ( really, it shouldn't!) and what I realized a while ago while talking to my sister because she has the same "problem". We both get really in stress if someone or something messes with our plans. That can be something little, like someone at work is sick and you have to fill in, which means I can't draw, which means there goes my week-planner. Nothing big, nothing with world troubles but I HATE THAT! That can even happen to me if the internet does not work for just one morning, but if I planned to do things where I need the internet, my world is Upside Down. Do you get it? I try to take that stuff an easier way but I find that very hard. So I choose a little painting which I made in 2010. I'm hanging upside down and my sister is standing next to me. My dad took pictures of us when we were children and I made paintings out of them. What I want to say I think is this: if your world is upside down, I hope that someone is right there next to you to catch you…

You can see all the 3 paintings I made Here and for more inputs on this theme please visit the wonderful blog of Patrice!

Wednesday, June 4, 2014

in between things

Last saturday I went to the re-opening of the shop in Rotterdam were I made the art-prints for I showed you before. The prints are now for sale at their place. I also decided to make some smaller stuff for them. So I tried to make jewelry out of my "Pippi"-designs. I made some bracelets and necklaces and I think they turned out really well! For the moment I don't put them in my shop, because I have a lot on my mind and thinking about re-opening or starting a new shop myself. So I just have to think about that for a while and not making quick decisions. But if you like a bracelet or necklace you can send me an e-mail ( or leave a comment. The bracelets are 8 euro and the necklaces are 14. Depends on where you live I have to think about the shipping costs ;-)

I wish you a good week and thank you so much for the comments on my last post. It is good to know that I'm not alone with my fears!

Saturday, May 31, 2014

drawing challenge

This weeks host for the drawing challenge is my dear friend Roberto. Even if we never met, I think of him like a friend, because he helped me a lot with his comments which are serious and often funny at the same time and I'm sure he will say something about what I'm going to write here and I will think: he is so right! That happens a lot ;-)
So: Roberto's theme is "limits" or if you will "no limits".  I didn't have to think long about this one. I have one big limit and that is myself. Let me try to explain. I limit myself, my head does. I think to much. I question everything. I think ahead if there is no use because I can't influence the future. My limit is fear. Not in the way that I don't like roller coasters because I love that! But in the way that I'm afraid to take a step in the wrong direction, ruin things or hurt people. I know al this and try to take things easier, let this limit not influence my work because that would be the worst thing ever!
For this challenge I took a still from one of my older video works, made in 2004. I choose the first still because of the word "hey". The video has a lot of text in it, but for this "hey" fits perfectly. "hey" to myself: take it easy, do not limit yourself, don't be scared. Like a note to myself. The second still is just a big scream! I get soooo tired of myself questioning everything. I'm going to scream "no limits" right now!

For more limits please visit Roberto's blog, where you find lots of his great and funny illustrations. Thanks for stopping by this week and I wish you all a wonderful weekend!

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

and there she is!

Framed and ready to go! I printed 4 of my large drawings and framed them. They are going to be for sale this friday in a shop in Rotterdam which is part of an art space. I'm really exciting to part of their re-opening of this shop and see what reactions I get and if the prints will sell or not…. Then I think about making more and sell them myself. Every print will be available 20 times. It's hard to take a good picture but I hope you get the idea for now…

Friday, May 16, 2014

and she is back!

Remember her? The first large drawing (150x230 cm) I ever made. Now I'm making some test of turning it into digital prints. I got a lot of questions by people if I also sell prints of these drawings, they would be of course a lot cheaper... I played with the idea in my mind and I give it a shot! Soon more details, if you want to see all the drawings I made, you can check out my website here.

Have a good weekend!

Tuesday, May 6, 2014

her beauty

Another sneak-peak of my sketchbook. I wish you all a good week and thank you for your nice and encouraging words on my last post!

Saturday, May 3, 2014

drawing challenge

This weeks host for the drawing challenge is the wonderful Patrice and her theme is "food". Of course I had to play along with this one! Many of you know already that I have this other blog about food. If not: I draw the recipes I cook and vary them with funny or serious quote's about food. This blog is about nice food in spite of food allergies.

In short I tell you my relationship with food. My whole life I have been allergic for peanuts and nuts. I get really ill when I only eat a third of a peanut, I can't breath. At the same time I have been suffering with headaches, stomach-ache and I was always extremely tired since I was 9 years old.  The doctors never found anything and send me home. When I was 16 it turned out that it was better for me not to eat certain things, that's why I became ill. I did that for one year but I could not keep it up. I was studying and living my life and having fun and it was to expensive to buy all that special stuff. I was used to the head-and stomach ache so that didn't bother me much. Almost two years ago I became very ill. I couldn't leave my bed for almost two months and that was the point when it hit me: I had to change things and think more about what I eat. I still I have to deal with my head and stomach because my body can not tell me what is good for it  and what not because all those years I just ignored it signals. I am used to my diet now, it is not hard. What is hard for me is that I can't figure out the signals of my body but I just give it some time. I am 33 years old now and learning what is good for me after 24 years. I started the food-blog to deal with it and to give it a positive turn and maybe to help others who have the same problems.

Like Patrice said: food has a huge impact on out health and I think most people don't realize this. People often ask me what I eat, if I still have fun and eat things that are fun and if it is not a lot of work and if it's not easier to take pills. This tells me that we have a disturb relationship with food and that the answer "it is a lot better for me and my health to eat this way" should be enough.

For more food please visit the wonderful blog of Patrice and I wish you all a nice weekend!

Saturday, April 26, 2014

a king's day

Today we have a national holiday in The Netherlands: King's Day. From 1890 to 2013 the day was known as Koninginnedag or Queen's Day. On 30 April 2013 (queens's day) Prince Willem-Alexander succeeded his mother and became King. Consequently from 2014 onwards the name is to changed from Queen's Day to King's Day. We dutch are all so used having a queen and to that word koninginnedag that King's day sounds really weird, like an old story or so. Luckily our King has only daughter's so the name changes back;-)

To all who are in The Netherlands this day: have a good day with all the festivities like flea markets and enjoy!

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

ship ahoy

This is I think the first paper boat I ever made! I'm proud of myself that I understood the instructions, haha! It turned out okay, don't you think? I made it to promote my shop a little bit more: if you order a bag, t-shirt or clock with one of my illustrations you do not pay the shipping cost until next sunday. (This excludes framed prints, canvas or pillows). Maybe you want an original t-shirt for this summer, click here!

I hope you had some nice easter holidays and I wish you good start in this new week!

Saturday, April 19, 2014

rabbit hearted girl

I want to wish everyone some sunny easter days. I'll spend them cuddling with my rabbit Pollock 
Until next week!

Tuesday, April 15, 2014


I started a new shop! And I like it! I just thought that it would be a great idea to use the illustrations I made for my new works. They are digital and perfect to print. Of course it is something different then the original works and therefor I changed the illustrations and gave the girls names. If you look carefully the "DreamGirl" for example is also a statement because of the chain.  There are only a few images up there for sale, soon more, but you can already now get your own t-shirt, bag or print with one of my illustrations!  Click here or check out the link on the right where now a banner for this shop is. Hope you like it!
And if you want to read something more about me, click here. My art was featured by Kettlepottracks

Saturday, April 12, 2014

drawing challenge

This weeks host for the DC is Tammie and her theme is "hat/cap". I thought about it and I wanted to show you one of my paintings where I used bunny-ears as a cap or something with the hair of Pippi Longstocking as in my drawings. You can all these things see as a cap or hat, but at the same time I found it a bit boring. So I thought I take this as a chance to show you a sneak-peek of the way I draw or sketch. It is a drawing with pencil I never finished and I never turned it into a painting, but who knows…
So this is a sketch of two sexy pigs dancing with nice hats. Can you hear the music? I can almost see how they are taking their hats of ;-) The second picture is a computer drawing of the same image where I wanted to try something with color and then didn't like it i think. The different ways I work this is…

If you still want to see bunny ears or pippi-hair, click on the links "drawing" or "painting" under labels on the right.
For more hats/caps go to the blog of Tammie where beauty flows!